Hi Lara,

Have you thought about seeing a doctor and telling him about your tension? There are meds that they can prescribe that will help you relax, and no one but you (and your doc) has to know that you are taking them. Just because you are tense or anxious does not mean that you do not have a strong personality. It doesn't make you weak. (I have a lot of anxiety problems and I am not weak). Please seek help from your doctor, you'll be glad that you did. Feel free to PM me of there is anything that I can do for you, or if you just need to talk!

Take Care,
Angel