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Originally Posted by BrokenNBeautiful
a man that I had been obsessing on (one of the reasons I ended up on PC) sort of came back to me when I watched a movie "Into Thin Air", about mountain climbing.
Anatoli Boukreev, that Russian climber had been on my mind nonstop back in October 2008 to about May 2009.
As a borderline, I am very dependent on strong personalities and Anatoli's personality appeals to me, as well as his strong voice, accent, and attitude.
I am also intimidated by him (the dark side of the coin) and want to push him away.
He has strong commanding ways; he was a coach as well as a climber.
Now he is on my mind again, 24/7 and I even "go places" in the fantasy. My mentor says that he senses me completely leaving him when I do.
I have always used fantasy to escape my life.
Billi
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I am bumping up this topic right now.
It's the 13th of October and something is really disturbing me right now.
Every October, since 2008, while my aunt was dying, this man has come back to my mind and there is always a danger of me losing myself to him.
This man has been dead since Christmas of 1997, had a gf, I have never been to his book signings, but I feel like I am *obsessed* with him!
Especially in October, around the 13th or the 22nd.
I even went so far as to wonder (this past year, esp since Andy and I broke up) if there was some "psychic" reason for this "interaction" or "encounter".
This man is dead.
I never knew him.
But he's on my mind AGAIN.
thanks,
Carol