Hello Rose76,
You seem to be depressed and you want to drink beer to forget all your pain, is that right?
Drinking alcohol will maybe be good at a short range, but in a long range, it will not be good for your health. Talk to someone near of you before doing that.
If you feel alone, feel free to message me if you need to talk, I will not judge you and I will be listening to you.
I wish you the best!