Susan,
It is wonderful coming out of a session feeling impowered. It is just as tiring. I crashed that evening. But it isn't as distressing. She wanted me to realize that it isn't her that is doing it, but it is me. She wanted me to see that I am changing. I am seeking the more positive side of things. I felt uncomfortable taking the credit. She said she would hold the credit for me for a little while but only a little while. I was thinking about it today and a understanding of another reason I needed to leave my old T. I equated him with being ill. I needed to let go of him to let go of my identification with being mentally ill and move toward a healthier way of being. This has nothing to do with him personally. He was a very supportive person and often told me what a good job I was doing and how much better I was. Anyway, it is an exciting time for me.

Wendy,
I read the Celestine Prophecy. It had lots of interesting stuff in it. I like the way the story went and how Redfeild was able to tell the story without the flow getting bogged down in the explainations and how the explanations didn't get lost in the story. He did a good job.

I remember that frustrating place in the reading process. I used a variety of methods to balance the frustration with the learning. I figured if I am getting frustrated the my kids are too and people don't learn well when they are frustrated. So what I would do is read a book with them several times. The first time through I would just supply the words that they got stuck on, slowly sounding it out for them as I ran my finger across the word. The next time we read the book I would have them sound out the words that I was fairly certain they would get and then do the harder words for them. As we read the book each time I would increase the number of words they needed to figure out themselves. They usually would hold an interest in the same 3 or 4 books over a couple of weeks so we were constantly reading different books so I just kinda kept loose track of where we were in the effort department. I would also let them take breaks and just read to them while they read silently with me. Don't tell the teacher but I counted this as part of the reading homework and wrote it down as such because I felt it was part of the process. It seemed to have worked and it made it possible for me to set the reading at a level that worked with my mood level which kept things more comfortable for all of us.

Mary Alice,
I am so sorry I have lost track. I have been so in my own world lately with all the changes I have been going through that I have lost track of where you are. You said you are recupperating. Can you update me. Gosh, I feel bad that I have lost track. I remember the problem with your T and the missed appointment and then I decided to leave my T and everything has gone into a deep fog. Please forgive me.
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft