I am not sure how to relate this to bpd, except that it's a "crazy" thing to me. Rachel, in her book, Get Me Out of Here, talked about feeling like the center of attention and I get giddy from the thought of Boukreev paying attention to me, i.e. in a romantic way.

Also, this fantasy could even get me in bad situations in real life because I really want to have a "Russian friend". Seems harmless on the surface, right? But I am addicted to the idea. Many pwbpd's are addicted or have behavioral issues that are erratic and/or strange.

Many are "love addicts". Wanting to feel loved, lovable and validated.

Carol