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I know exactly how you feel... I have been in the same place, so this is a bit triggering for me... Remember Phoebe Prince? She was the one that did it to me.

You see, I have been suicidal for most of my life. It is just something I am. There are times where something small can happen and I am just ready to go for it. Yet, because of this, I have SO much sympathy for people who are suicidal. I have even more sympathy for people who have actually done it... I felt so bad for poor Phoebe. She was such a pretty girl, she could have had such a bright future - all gone... Because of bullies. It tore me up for a while, I still think and pray for her (and I don't even pray often).

I can't speak for everyone, but for me it's because I wish I was there. I wish I could have been there and told her that someone cares. I wish I could have told her that it would get better, that it wasn't over. I guess everyone says "it wouldn't make a difference" but we can't ever really know. If someone really sees love, compassion, and caring maybe it can stop them at that moment? I don't know, but it is something that has always bothered me. I always wish that I could be there and just talk to them. I would live to be a suicide counselor, but I don't know how good I would be. I just know that I value EVERY life. I value everyone, and I never want to see someone go through with this....

It is so sad, and it's hard to hang on when you see people giving up...