T says regarding this topic perhaps we need to work on reality checks. I am terrified of asking her for a realty check. I know she will say that's how it felt with my mother but I don't have any memories of being scared of her. Oh wait a moment, that's because I repressed feelings of terror.

I am determined to talk about how afraid to ask T what she is really thinking compared to what I think she is thinking. Even though it scares me to do so.