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Old Oct 14, 2012, 09:08 AM
Eliza Jane Eliza Jane is offline
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Not me. I had been doing really well on meds and had about 10 yrs in therapy (I know, a lot) and my life was in a good place with minimal stress. I wanted to get off and pdoc agreed although he was skeptical. I was on 3 meds and I just dropped the 1st and most helpful one (Abilify) and within weeks I became suicidal. The following months were a lot of ups and downs playing with meds trying to get me on as little as possible (I wanted to go med-free in anticipation of pregnancy). I've learned that my illness is very biologically driven and going completely off meds is not going to work for me. I'm not happy about that, but the alternative (hospitalization, self-harm, losing my job/career?) is not an acceptable trade off for me.

However, I was able to pretty significantly reduce my meds. At this point I am only taking 100 Lamictal (and Deplin, but that's not technically a medication). It is not much but it is night and day compared to no meds at all. Might it be an option to reduce what you take instead of going off completely?

If you do decide to go med-free do it with the cooperation of your pdoc. Don't burn bridges in case you need to go back with your tail between your legs (like I did ). Also make sure that you have both support and monitoring from a therapist and friends/family. I know that it can be hard to tell how bad I've gotten "from the inside.". Feedback from people who knew me best was helpful in the decision-making process. It was also important for me to have a line where I would say, "okay, being off meds is not working for me". I my case it was having intrusive suicidal thoughts. That was my sign that my plan wasn't working. Another thing I would consider is going off at a "good" time (e.g., not when your job is in jeopardy, you have a major stressful event coming up, etc.)

At the end of the day, you know what is best for you. There are a handful of people here who are able to get by without meds. It is certainly something you could try. If it works great, if not you could always start again.

Good luck!
EJ