Being a survivor of sexual abuse (male & female - mother primary), I opted for celibacy a couple of years into my recovery process ... It gave me permission to quit trying to prove to myself whether or not I was straight or gay ... It also allowed me to quit sexually abusing myself through unhealty attachments and relationships ...
Celibacy isn't for everyone, but it is an option worth considering while trying to sort everything out ... I, for one, am living proof that living without sex will not kill us ... Contrary to many popular opinions otherwise ... !!!
I wish you the best as you embark on your journey towards healing and recovery ...

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Pfrog!