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Originally Posted by geez
I have seen my T in public with her daughter/s too and it used to weird me out but it doesn't any more. In some ways I do feel a tiny bit jealous. For example she was talking in class about her daughter going on a trip with a friend and some of the activities she did. I felt jealous not of her daughter per se but the fact that my T is such a good mom to her kids. I never in a million years would have had that type off opportunity growing up. I could tell my T was beaming and proud of her daughter. In some small way I wish I had that growing up. My mother wasn't of the supportive loving hug type.  |
Yeah, this. I have this idea that my T is the perfect mother, when of course, she isn't. I hold my own parenting up to what I imagine to be her perfect parenting and obviously fall short. Not to mention wishing that I could have had a mom who is as emotionally attuned as she usually is.
She has told me that she's different with her kids - that she gets angry and frustrated just like every other parent. I believe her, but it's hard to picture. At the same time, there have almost been times when I wish she would get angry with me (weird, I know), because in some way that would mean that she was actually invested and able to be influenced by me.