Uhm, we terminated therapy under reasonable circumstances. I don't know if there would ever be ideal circumstances to terminate a relationship (I've never been good with that). She just thought that therapy wasn't helping, and though I protested initially, as we went along, I realised that we had nothing to talk about. I don't want to reach out and have this happen again. I also am finally getting used to it, I just don't want to get close again and have to go through this again.

I stopped my medication because I started drinking again. I can't do both. Also because I just dno't want to do it anymore. The associated weight gain for someone like me (with the self esteem of.... well... soemone with no self esteem) is really not something I could handle. And on most days, I've seen no difference. I'm just worried about what'll happen when I start back working. So I don't want to talk to anyone about it until I can objectively judge for myself the difference. I learnt how to do that too, I think.