I think you can't really get much lonelier as it is - he clearly isn't happy and neither are you from the sounds of it so maybe ask yourself what this relationship and these feelings are doing for you? Not a lot of good at the moment it seems...if this man loved you he wouldn't be acting this way. Yes he may have a hard job and an absent family but thats no excuse to treat you like this. I would see if you could go and stay with your close friend for a bit and maybe think about moving back home until you've got the money to find a place of your own. I know that toughs but im not sure what other options are open to you and if the end result is you having a better life in your place without this mans abuse surely thats something worth aiming for? I hope whatever you do works out for the best. Good luck.