I didn't know there was a job postings thread. Can't hurt to look. And yes, I know I'm not the only one and that does help, though I don't personally know anyone who is still unemployed.

I have attempted to start my own business and got as far as building a web site and getting business cards, but then I realized it would take much too long to build up a practice and I have to focus on a "real" job. Although focusing on anything is a joke!

Thanks Deb for relating. Yes I am going to try for anything and I know I am likely to get bored at certain jobs but anything would be better than having to give up my own apartment and live with my very dysfunctional relatives! I have been living alone for most of my adult life and I like it!

I am trying to put together a resume for office & customer service type jobs. So far I have asked 2 people to help me - who said yes - but they haven't come through. Working on it on my own. I've been crying at lot all week but in a way that's good because the reality of my situation is hitting home and I think I was in denial before.

The last two nights people have again offered me unasked for advice: "Did you try this? Have you tried applying there?" And in the middle of SOCIAL situations when I was trying to enjoy myself and keep it together. The one person I somewhat snapped at, and the other I said I don't want to talk about this right now (but it ruined my mood). You would think the least a supposed friend could do is offer their advice privately - not as if it's casual dinner conversation for goodness sake!!

But I am extremely sensitive about this subject right now. And unasked for advice has always been one the the things that bothers me the most. I know why -- it always feels like a criticism to me. That they are saying these things because they think I am stupid, that I can't think for myself, that I am not trying.....

All the therapy and support groups I've had and that feeling does not go away. Crap.

Well thank you for your support and for listening to me vent. I really appreciate it.