For quite a while I've wondered how I'm doing, when people ask how I am I have an automatic response of "I'm okay", which nobody questions. Really though I don't know if I am okay. A lot of the time I don't think I even feel anything at all emotionally, sometimes I feel things but they are just a shell of emotion rather than something more true...

Sometimes my family ask why I'm so 'miserable' or 'cold' and I'm not miserable, I don't think, I'm not anything. Things have been bad recently in terms of events and I don't understand why I'm like this, I don't seem to understand love or happiness or sadness anymore, but I've never been angry or annoyed with anyone besides myself before I felt this 'numb' I suppose. Does anybody know what can cause this, I'm a teenager (16) so people just say it's my hormones.

In the past I had to see a psychiatrist, my parents didn't know because we aren't close, and nobody I knew, knew about it. But they didn't know completely what was wrong, they didn't know the whole story because I couldn't trust them so it's my fault, I told them about things I heard and saw (and still do) that nobody else seemed to believe, but then didn't tell them everything because I was scared about how they'd react. Maybe these things are all related, I don't know though, does anybody have any ideas? Oh, these things usually affect my sleep too, sorry it seems like I'm putting this in forcefully here, any help would be appreciated, I posted yesterday so maybe that is relevant too