What a great thread! I can relate to so much of what people are saying. It makes me feel not so alone. Thank you everyone for sharing.

For the longest time, well, until a few years ago, I guess I just thought, well, no one remembers their childhood, that's just normal. It was just childhood after all.

A couple years ago, I asked my children things about their childhood and I found out that they remembered what seemed like everything. I was amazed. I thought they were gifted lol. (Course, I still think that, but now I realize it has nothing to do with remembering their lives ).

I guess the very first time I had an "in your face" awareness that my life had the potential of not being "normal" was when I saw some pictures of me in front of an amusement park and others of me in the park, on rides, etc. It was me, but I had never gone. But apparently I had. It was a surreal moment.

I don't think I have ever seen a picture that I could look at and say oh yea, of course that's me but this was the first time that I remember thinking out loud, how did someone get a picture of me in front of this amusement park? But, even then, I never really thought too hard about it after that. I thought it was weird, but my thoughts never seemed to go any further than that.

I've always gotten in trouble for doing things I did not do, saying things I did not say so I don't think I ever thought anything odd about it back then. It was just kind of one of those things that just were. It's not until now as I work through things that I think, Oh, huh, you mean you don't do that too? That doesn't happen to you?

My awareness of my lack of awareness has always been so little that things did not dawn on me in general. It's just now, as my awareness is growing that I am able to look back and see those things such as wait, I said what? I think my level of dissociation was so much that in between dissociating into different sections of my brain, I was still so dissociated that I wasn't aware of what was going on with me. I just kind of carried on from one thing to another, not realizing anything. Does that make any sense at all?

Thanks for letting me share.