Well, I broke down last night and took one of my 2 remaining Vicodin tablets. Oh, what a relief. 2 hours later, I was like a new person. I woke up with my neck feeling almost normal. I am relieved of most of that depression.

I just have to get over my stiff-necked pride and be willing to "pee in the cup" or jump through whatever hoops needed to get pain meds. When my neck goes into spasm, I feel like I don't want to live. When that is relieved, I feel like a new person. Suddenly, life seems interesting to me again.