The other night I was just browsing around and came across a description for avoidant personality disorder. All I could say was, WOW, that is me! I always thought I had social anxiety (more like phobia), anxiety, and depression (all self diagnosed.) So, now I'm not sure where to go from here.

I suppose the correct thing to do is get help. But, that is so expensive, with no guarentee it will help. I did try therapy a couple times. I went for a few sessions but I couldn't see that it would help. I always felt the therapists thought I was a waste of time, there was nothing wrong with me so they were just waiting for me to stop. If I knew for sure someone could help me, I guess I would be willing to invest money for therapy.

Anyway, I just wanted to express my suprise on learning about this disorder that I've never heard of before but really does seem to fit me. In a weird way it makes me feel better knowing about this. And I just wanted to vent a little on knowing I probably need therapy but am unlikely to get it using money, trouble connecting with a therapist and shame (people still look down on you for mental health issues) as a way to "avoid" it.