I'm sorry you are going through all this ..

I very seldom get the "happy go lucky I love the world I can do and be anything I have ever dreamed of Creativity off the charts."

I get the" Mad pissed off hate the world and all the fluffy bunnies kind of Mania."

Good Luck and welcome to Pc Polekat.

Hope you can find support and info here and even a laugh or 3