I am a christian, and I am not the least bit offended by your post. I am so sorry that you went through all of that as a child. My father was a respected church member, but after my mom died when I was 13, he had a nasty anger problem and beat the crap out of me repeatedly. I rebelled by acting out and got in to all sorts of trouble. and from the time I left home seldom entered the doors a church.

In the past couple of years I have been on a quest to recover my spirituality. I have discovered a whole different side of christian faith. No body is perfect, but I have actually found the most loving and supportive group of people that I have ever met in my life

I suppose the real point is that there are a lot of people in the world who think they have all the answers, and usually don't. Even though they claim to be Christians there attitudes are anything but Christian. Abuse is abuse whether it is carried out by people who claim to be Christians or not. Hypocrisy is everywhere, and sometimes even in the church. None of us are "good" but Jesus loves us and in Him we have forgiveness and healing.

Even more important, though I do care and I hope that you can find the healing you so deserve. You are a wonderful human being, whom God created and loves. I am so sorry that you were abused and neglected by the ones who should have been giving you as safe and secure environment, No one ever has the right to to ever abuse another person.

Love
Larissa