(((One and Many))), ((((((Myself)))))), (((((Wantto))))

Thank you for sharing your dreams. I think having something to hold onto just for me..means something important...I am the oldest child..most of the time made the sacrifices...then in my marriage..the same thing occurred..I learned at a very very young age there was not a thing that a people could not take away from me..not one thing.. including my life..this progressed thru out my life and thru a violent marriage where I was less than human..I got so used to the idea of dying that I really had a problem, and still do sometimes, on living...so I started pretending..if I could live..where would I want to live, at first it started out as a cave..seriously thats how bad it was...but over time and in Therapy it has evolved into my Dream...

I try to keep it safe and cocooned away from some of the abusive internals where they can do damage to it and make it not mine...but..its kept really deep, layered, someday..I hope..when we are better..it can be real..

((Myself)) thank you for sharing so much of yourself..know that you are in my thoughts, as well as you One and Many & Wantto...take care ...