Im so with you. My doctor says it's dysphoric mania-I go from 0 to super ***** in 3 seconds-no space between reactions. My mind goes and goes and goes. I'm negative and pessemistic. Ive "got the edge on" and have that irritatated anxious energy. I get very short glimpses of the "happy" doesn't last long or get too high. Pisses me off,frankly. I'm sorry that is your experience. It is really hard for me to buy into the bipolar label because I don't have the typical "happy mania" Glad your back on meds that help you. Hang in there!!!