If you want to know what your diagnoses is, ask your T. He may or may not tell you but it is always worth a go. I asked my T and I am glad I did but it didn't really solve anything. I have also found that most people don't neatly fall into one category or another - mental illnesses overlap and it common to have traits from a number of them but not meet the criteria for a full diagnoses. From what you have said in your post, it doesn't seem like you are "schizo" to me just really anxious/scared. I am obviously not an expert though so best to have a chat with T about it Take care!