I went to the dermatologist and he had to look at skin on my face and I turned bright red and burned up. He asked what's wrong. I said "I hate the way I look and hate having you look at me". I kept looking away. He kept reassuring me that it's ok for him to look at my face. I just can't stand how I look. I can't even look in mirror much anymore. I see a ugly repulsive fat acne infested person.