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Oct 14, 2012, 11:40 PM
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Member Since: Feb 2012
Location: Greenland
Posts: 665
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I'm always afraid I'm going to fail. This is my only opportunity that I've had my whole life. This will make me very happy, I need to pass class. Here's what happened; I applied and out of hundreds, I got an acceptance letter, I was at a point in my life where I was giving up but this gave me some a reason to hope. There's a high chance of failing and they really own me. It's so stressful, this is my key to moving out, be independent. From where I once was, everybody is so proud of me... but what if I fail? I lose everything. I could fail, one wrong move I could potentially harm a patient and that means I fail.
It's stupid to say but I'm scared to participate in class and say the wrong thing. It's a small class everybody knows each other, competitive cliques I hate it, people can be nasty. In this profession I'd have to be confident, and they know I'm not. Attitude is a big deal, and I don't have that. How can I be a positive, confident, happy , relaxed if anything can fail me any day. I'm scared for my friends who may fail, and who have already failed, they really want wean you out. how can I smile in that class, how can I be relaxed if I have anxiety, I've got to be alert but I'm drained of my energy, it is like being a contestant in a competition reality tv show.
 it's really depressing
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