I again, Jean.

I agree with most of your reply, but I think sundance is right : you need to see more than a physician, maybe a psychiatrist.

You seem to understand most of your difficulties, but if your brother commited suicide and your mom is bipolar, I would'nt hesitate to consultate. I'm no doctor, but this would be my advice.

Sincerely,

Starbuck

Born in 1963 of French mom and Canadian dad. Studied and worked (Majors in History, Theology. M.A. in Sociology).