I was not triggered at all and read it all. I am so sorry and mad at your mom and dad. I believe mom and dad set your brothers up to be what they are now. I can understand on one level why you cannot be mad at mom. I am so sorry. I think the work you have done on this is good you remember a lot and you and T have spoken on the feelings you have yet to feel. I read once depression is anger turned inward. HUGE SAFE HUGS