You deserve to feel happy. We all do. A lot of people on this site are struggling or have struggled with some very hard things to overcome, and we all just wish things could be better. I know the feeling of feeling like such a terrible person. I look at people in my college and how they're succeeding with school, friends, life in general, the ones that found their happiness and then I look back at me, a lout, always depressed, not motivated enough to do anything, constantly feeling like one giant disappointment. I literally slept the entire day (from 3am-8pm) because I was too depressed to get out of bed. But I'm not a terrible person. I have made people happy, I have people that care about me even though I'm distant or disappoint them. My intentions have only been good in this world, despite making many mistakes along the way. I realize this even though I'm just a depressed oaf, lying around and wishing things could be better instead of doing something about it.

I'd love to talk to you, I just pm'ed you back! I realize I am good at making people feel better about their circumstances, so I'll do what I can

You understand the pain I'm going through, so from one gentle yet broken heart to another, I love you Jess