hey, just thought I should let you know that you're not alone ! I have a similar story; I am naturally intelligent, but my mental issues get in the way of me doing what I need to do. When I started my junior year of high school, I went through a series of hospital stays (eight stays over eight months, lasting about one-three weeks each) and was gone almost the entire school year (I went to school only 60 out of 181 days). Then, around Easter of this year (which was supposed to be my senior year) I just got really sick and depressed (I had some kind of stress-induced tick/seizure thing) and I dropped out in April. I signed up for online school this year, and for the first three-four weeks I did okay and got decent grades on my assignments. But around the end of September, I just started getting so messed up in my head again (I say this because I deal with depression, but also some other very unpleasant things like hallucinations and paranoia). I have barely worked on any homework since then and am rapidly falling behind I want to be able to say that, at the very least, I have been able to finish high school. But I find myself unable to think and function, and whenever I even look at my schoolwork, I can't help but feel helpless, like I don't even want a future, and find my mind straying into those ugly suicidal thoughts. I am sorry I can't help or offer you any advice, I just think that sometimes it helps to know that you're not completely alone. I hope this post was at least somewhat comforting to you. I hope you find an answer to your problem, and good luck