The full on questioning and taking history is a welcome change Livethroughthis, that's for sure, I have seen so many dr's and specialists and they always want to take symptoms on separately, which is what leads to so many mis dx's in my case. No one is that sick, not at my age usually. If I had all those separate illness at once, my god!

The light bulbs , yes, I was kinda doubtful so I had to look into it my self last night. Me question doctors? No way Actually those new light bulbs are quite something, and something that we all should be aware of. They contain mercury, they have blown up, and we all know that kids tend to break things... so having mercury vapor floating around the air is not really a good idea . When you switch them on scientists claim that several carcinogenic chemicals are let off, so recommended not to have them near your head or in areas that are not well ventilated. Aside from the UV rays they omit. And on top of that Canada and in Europe.. sorry not sure about the states, have plans to enforce the use of these lovely bulbs and phase out the older incandescent with a ban. Or already done so.

If that isn't a bit nuts, a complex hazardous-materials procedure is recommended by the EPA ( http://www.epa.gov/cfl/cflcleanup.pdf ) when they break. It details how to safely clean up a broken CFL lightbulb, things like not vacuuming and spreading the mercury vapor around, putting it in glass jars not plastic bags... it's only three pages long.

IZ, I think you were onto something about your dislike of these bulbs.

Ok sorry for that, but that stuff just gets to me. I love the environment and my family and friends, and I would like to keep them all.

Thank you for all the support. I am just going to focus on getting ready for work. I told myself I was going to practice power poses and stuff. I want to show up being confidant, or looking like it anyways so that I have a good start, with the employers and the other staff. It's a pretty social environment up there, and I don't want to walk in all small and nervous and shy, which is usual for me, but not really a plus.

I think it will be, if it turns out for sure to be lupus..well then I have probably had it for a long long time anyways, much like when we get our BP dx, nothing really changed except for our knowledge and know how.

ok I feel like I have taken up a lot of time lately. So thank you all very much, it means a lot to me and your faith in me! I don't always feel very strong.