Dear FaithisAlive...

First and foremost..I am so sorry you have to endure the legacy of sexual abuse, but speaking from a Survivor’s stand point you are an amazing and valuable person who has been able to live with the pain and struggles that survivors of this type of chronic abuse do.
I hope that you keep posting and find strength, knowledge, and empowerment as you go thru the process of healing..you are in my deepest thoughts..take care…and remember to breathe after you post such intense stuff..so can relate to the panicky feeling after doing so…be gentle with yourself..