Hi,

I'm fed up with my lack of progress in psychoanalysis and have decided to teach myself DBT.

Though my shrink didn't officially diagnose me she kept urging me to do DBT, and yet my therapist (who doesn't use labels) seemed to think all I needed was him. Meanwhile my group therapist has hinted at me being borderline.

Well, after 5 frickin' years, I'm still having periodic melt-downs and my self-hate is worse than ever, and this last time I impulsively dropped all my classes which I now regret big-time. That was the last straw.

So this weekend, I started reading through Linehan's skills training manual and am creating my own "program".

What gets me is that every description of how a borderline thinks matches my own way of thinking and coping. I'm so disappointed that my therapist pooh-poohed DBT when it could have really helped me these last few years. Grrrr.

I wonder why therapists seem to have little regard for DBT? Is that even true?

Anyway, I decided to be more active on this forum because I have no support anywhere else, and I don't trust myself to use the skills when I need them. Sometimes it's like I feel most "me" when I feel like a worthless piece of crap.

I wonder if I should tell my therapist at all? I guess he wouldn't be supportive now if he wasn't then. ??

Thanks for letting me vent,

Vy