((((((((((Evangelista))))))))))))))))

No, thank you for participating. When we share like this it not only helps us not to feel so isolated, we learn. We learn when someone might have a similar experience that we've not quite yet figured out, what might be going on. It helps us to make those connections in our separated minds, I think. I think sharing is key.

So, thank you all for sharing. It's helped me to much to know that I'm not alone and to know that even though the "faces" might be different, it's the same "movie" so to speak. What amazing people we are.

I look at my birth family, and coming out of it with DID...I'm so much the lucky one. I can look at that as sad or as a blessing. I choose to view it as a blessing, because what was, WAS. That can't be changed. Looking at their illnesses and functioning, I certainly was the touched one in my family...touched in a good way.

Keep going please!

Besides the skating rink, during the worst time, there was another place or two that I would go to. We lived on base and there was a place that had hills (mountains to me) of colored sand. However, this sand was more like little pearls. It became my "kingdom". It was isolated and all of me felt safe there, and acted out there. I have such a warm happiness thinking of this and knowing what I now know. Another good memory is when we would go to the open areas clustered with pine trees. Well, where there's alot of pine trees, grass won't grow. We would sweep the pine needles up and form the outline of our own house...no bedrooms, everything safe, and NO ONE could come in that we didn't like.

So, while there was alot of yuck, these parts of my mind also found ways for us to feel safe, have fun and be ok. I feel so blessed to see the good with the bad, at the same time, now.

I think the reason I'm pointing these episodes out is that these were times that most to all of me could be present at one time and just "be"...the rare times. I remember the conversation (internally). When I played like that, safely, I never played alone. In fact, there would be an intense anger if some other kid came round and "the bully" would run them off. LOL.

Love,

KD