My Support Forums - View Single Post - Why don't the pdoc and t get it? (sui. mentioned)

moremi · Oct 15, 2012, 02:00 PM

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Originally Posted by bluemountains

**Trigger Warning-sui. mentioned**

I am just back from seeing my t and my pdoc calls me every few days. For some reason, both believe I am having suicide ideation (is that the right word?)
Yes, I am depressed, yes, I have a lot of stress with the new job, yes, my mind goes there sometimes, yes, I am feeling pretty hopeless and helpless these days.
But I don't think I am on the brink of sui. It must be something I am saying to both that makes them believe this. I have been there before, and I am not in the mind frame to go there again.
I don't get all of this, but I am just about to say, screw it, and stop the meds, the visits, and the phone calls. I don't believe I am going to harm myself with or without them.
Bluemountains

I know what your saying. Only we know when we are there. There is that line we cross. We can be depressed, severely depressed and still not be suicidal. But then we can be barely depressed and just snap and be suicidal only we know when we are there. I think they just dont know or understand that. My doctor ask me at every single visit if I have been having suicidal or homicial thoughts. I always wonder why he asks about the homicial thoughts because I have never told him i have had them before. I have never even had anger issues until the last couple of days. I hope you continue to see your doctor, he is just trying to do his job. Trying to make sure you are safe. We all want that. I want you to start feeling better thats for sure even though I know your not sui I still want you out of that funk. Hugs Blue!!!!