Yikes, I dunno how to vote Venus. I do think I have some physical problems that contribute to my mental "stuff", but is it a problem originating from my body, or the environment? I have troubles because of my past and upbringing, but I have worked on most of that, maybe there is a little scar tissue I still contend with.

But I also feel like maybe some of the troubles are not so much with me, but with the world we live in. I think I am pretty sane for the most part, somehow the world disagrees. Speaking very generally here.

Chemical imbalances.. .. I dunno.. I need more proof. Somehow I am far more likely to believe that things like celiac ( since it's well know that these type of autoimmune disorders cause cognitive and mood problems) and other issues I am dealing with combined with my past, and learned dysfunction have all contributed to a Bipolar 1 dx for myself.

I view it as how I am, how I have been, and how I want to be. Either way I am not content with continually repeating what I have done, thought, etc and continually getting the same results. I am not ok with accepting that things do not change, or that things will not improve. To me that is like a death sentence. I am not willing to accept the limitations that mental illness or disease suggest. I am willing to accept that I can change things.