(((((LM))))) I echo what heartspace just said. Whether you believe it or not you are a stronger person now then you were then, and you will keep growing as you continue to talk about your fears. You will never be able to forget what people have said to you, it is in the past and you can't change it. But what you can change is how you feel about it, and you can control what you are going to do (emotionally) about it in the future. You have came to a very good place. I just saw you on chat and tried to come on but my computer is not letting me for some reason! grrr! ... but please feel free to message me if you want.

take care