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I’m new to cutting. I don’t see it as self-injury though. It’s not dangerous; I’m first aid certified so I’m careful about infections and sterilize my blades. I’m not worried about scars—everyone has a few; and mine, if I end up with any, will be hidden unless I’m in a bathing suit. I guess I think of the marks more like a war-injury or stretch marks. They are a sign that I experienced some trauma, but survived.
My life is really bad right now. (It always has been, just more so now I guess.) The thing is cutting really helps. When the pain inside overwhelms me and I can’t function anymore I just want to cut and when I do my head clears and I can focus again.
I can’t afford to see a counselor so I guess this is the place for me to talk.
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