Hi jacq - I think what you're feeling is normal, given that you were so close, and she was such a caring maternal figure for you. I"m so sorry that you're going through the pain of being separated from her. I know it feels like it won't get any better, but it will - honestly. And a good cry in the meantime won't do you any harm. I think it's a tribute to what a wonderful job she does, that you miss her so.
It will get easier with time and we're here for you ... (((Jacq)))