I have never been in any kind of therapy before. I always thought it would be great if I could, and unfortunately never had the means until now. I have only been to 3 sessions thus far. I think its great, and I adore my therapist. She is very calm and soft spoken, but she has a way of pinning down the important stuff and really knows how to ask questions. Thank God because if she didn't I'd probably just sit there like a mute. But why, every single session, I have cried. THE WHOLE TIME. I leave a sobbing mess and the rest of my day seems gloom and doom. I realize I have never really opened up like this before, but come on! I am willing to place a wager on the fact that I will ball again this next session. Is this going to happen everytime? It's so not like I thought it would be- I may have idealized it a bit, admittedly. I pictured myself laying on a sofa just spewing my life's little bits and pieces. And I HATE crying. Like seriously hate it, I never ever do it around people because its very embarrassing to me. I've read a lot of threads on here, and everyone seems to talk about their sessions like they're just so lax, and smooth...
Will it always be like this? And what I really mean is, did anyone else have this issue upon first entering therapy? I can't do this if all I am ever going to do is cry. I feel as though I accomplish nothing, because I'm too busy blubbering like an idiot and unable to say the things I feel I really need to say. I just need assurance that this does happen, or there is some type of normalcy to this, or if therapy just isn't right for me?