I feel like I should apologize for posting again..I feel like they are the same things over and over again.

My ex bf is my best friend. I have started to date a new guy and I am falling for him big time. My ex can't take it anymore so he tells me that I'm we,disbanding should start going to my new bf to talk about things and about my issues, I don't want to scare in away. There are so many questions about this new guy and I'm trying to take things slow and I don't wanna share too much too soon. My ex feels like I'm not being honest with the new guy in sharing all my anxieties and that I suffer from depression. My ex has basically said I'm selfish for thinking he would still stay my friend while I date other people.

My grandmother is also dying I think. My mom gave me the call today and said I should go visit my Nana sooner than I had planned on -I was gonna go Halloween weekend as it takes me 3hrs to get there. Now she is declining quicker than we realized.

I live away from my family. My brother doesn't talk to my parents or me. I called him tonight to see if he knew about my grandmother, but he isn't answering my calls.

I feel so overwhelmed. Idk what to do, I have no one. I mean my mom is all upset about my gram. I don't have too many friends around here to rely on either.

Dd I mention how much I like this guy? I'm afraid I might be too much for him. Idk. I see my counselor on Thursday. Although I was thinking of canceling to go to a work event to support a co-workers in a workshop he is presenting in the evening, so I would miss my counselor appt.

Idk what to do. I can't make any decisions on my own. I feel like there is this big wave coming over me and I don't even know how to get a grasp of it. This isn't how things are supposed to be.