I agree with Hamster, but obviously there is something in you/about you that you feel has changed for the worse, and that's significant,

I am with you, except I don't have the guts to post any pics because the change is so drastic (a 100lb weight gain).

It is ******. And I regularly get surprised when I'm in a diff. place that has a mirror and spot myself, "****, I'm THAT big?!"