Thanks. Yes, I am very close to her. I would go and stay with her for the weekend and she has always considered me her closest grandchild. She taught me how to sew, how to knit, and garden. She is very special to me. I'm going to try and take a day off from work this week and go up and see her.

Yes, my ex is being very mean. He is saying I'm selfish that I won't let him go and heal on his own. The selfish thing is what kills me. It just hurts so bad. I don't think I am selfish. Maybe I am...maybe I am a horrible person. He makes me feel like I'm such a basket case that no other guy will put up with me and my issues. It just hurts so bad. Especially now that I feel like I need someone to talk to about my gram. I just don't understand how HE can be so selfish.

Thank you for offering for me to PM you..I might just do that. Idk.