...first up I just want to express how grateful I am to my friends here, you are all special to me and I don't mean "looney like special"...( not that there's anything wrong with that! )
...forgive me for abandoning you for a bit there I was sincerely messed up and achieved levels of personal freakdom that I'm sure you can relate to.

...I really don't know how it works or how it don't work....this mentally ill experience?...but sure as heck I cannot outrun it escape it crush it into a million peices like I want to...

cos I cannot get ahead of myself...hide from myself...dis-integrate!

just when it's gotten so damn bad it simply can't get no worse!

....and it's hell confusing and the brain is exploding with negative crap..

and I can't even understand what crying means no more it just hurts way too deep for that!

...I just hope all I got for an atom of peace....soon I got meself a molecule ...then a bit further on I got an element of "ok"... (sorry to go all chemistry on you)

...anyway I just wanted to pop in and say hello and I miss you and I hope you be doin ok.

love, monkey