I just need to talk to someone, anyone thus why I just had to post here.

Ive suffered from depression for many years, or at least I think I am. Since I grew up in a family who thinks depression is just all in your head, they don't have any sympathy. Years ago I started with self injury to make the pain less and one day I just realised that its wrong and luckily I stopped doing that. After that I begged my mom to get me help...it never happened...

All these years I've been fighting this thing alone, all these years I just had my dogs to help me through a day. The past 3 days I've had severe depression, I only get out of bed to feed the pets and go to the bathroom. The rest of the time I sleep or cry or worry bout my life. I think what brought this on is the fact that my sis (she and her son moved in with me a year ago) is now involved with a guy using drugs and he moved in. I actually know this guy and we never could stand each other. He also loves to make fun of my weight (I'm slightly overweight) infront of people whenever he gets the chance.

That hurts me and it embarrasses me. I've tried to reason with my sis and told her that I don't mind if he stays over 3,4 times a week but she wants him here all the time and needless to say we ended up fighting. I also planned to invite a few friends over this weekend since its my birthday on Monday then I found out from my nephew that my sis invited a few kids over to spend the weekend with my nephew. When I confronted her bout it, she just said that she forgot that its my birthday.

I guess I just feel lonely, worthless and pathetic. When I phoned my best friend earlier to tell him that I'm planning on visiting some family just to get away from here cos I can't take it anymore, he told me 'pull yourself together, depression is all in your head. There is nothing wrong with you'... I nearly lost it

Why cant no one see that there is something wrong with me. Do they think I want to feel like this?!
I feel like I'm going crazy