So here is another kink in the weekend plans to see my gram - I have to work at an open house for school on saturday and then head to another state (only an hour away here in New England) to go to my cousin's 1st birthday party. That's all on Saturday. AND, on Fri I was going to take a vacation day b/c my mom got tickets to see the Dali Lama. Idk if I should miss work to go to that or to take a day and see my gram. Otherwise, i won't be able to go up and see her until Sunday.

As for the ex thing - I haven't talked to him all day. I do feel like I'm a little lonely - noone. I just want to snuggle with the new b/f...i don't want to be too overwhelming though. I'm still hurt and licking my wounds from what the ex said last night...about me being selfish. I have to look out for someself - noone else in this world will!

Now, I am singing a different tune this morning - usually night time is worse for me and I feel really, really down. We'll see how things go as I progress through the day. Ugh. Thanks for the support guys. Oh, and I am keeping my appt for Thursday with my counselor. I just have to make myself call her and tell her that day/time is good...that is if she hasn't given it to someone else already.