I can sort of relate - when i first came here it was strictly for advice and to learn what to expect realistically from my disorder - textbooks have a way of skimming over that in my experience. For me now this is more of a place to distract myself and hopefully lend a hand to others. Helping others draws me out of my introspection even if its only temporarily. Some things that get written on here make me really angry but i just try and remind myself as best i can that im not going to be able to change people - they hold their views for a reason and no doubt i regularly annoy others as well so im not exactly free and clear. For me personally ive come to know as much as i want to know about my disorder so as i said before im happy to help others should they need it but i don't really want to be surrounded by mirror images of myself all the time - i feel depressed enough as it is. Just my thoughts.