SASE:
When I saw my first T I didn't know a thing about transference, had never heard of the word! I struggled with my feelings for her and didn't want to tell her, I was so ashamed of them. She gently told me that feelings for her weren't really for her, but for my mother. I fought against that. The sexual feelings were shaming though she told me they were sensual, and normal too. I wrote an essay called "The transference web" after my therapy with her. I still didn't understand it but knew it was very powerful.

I'm ashamed now because I can't make the transference go away. My T doesn't make me feel ashamed; she understands my feelings for her, even the baby kangeroo who wants to stay in her pouch forever. Feeling like a baby and child with my T makes me feel powerless and vulnerable, like SASE said. I know I have it worse than a lot of others and that makes me feel even more ashamed.