faith, i cannot express how sorry i am to read that. it is upsetting to read but thats to be expected.

i am so proud of you for having the courage to be able to speak out about such traumatic experiences. your parents sound dis-illusioned. people such as your parents should not be aloud to have children.

i am glad that you understand that this was wrong for your parents to do, and that you will never inflict this treatment onto someone else. unfortunately, your brothers arent as lucky as you.

may i ask, how old are you now faith? how long ago did this all happen? i know you said your father passed away 6 years ago, but how long before then did this happen?

the reason your mum is so attached to your brothers is because she is similar to them, she feels the same things they do. but it is not their fault. she must see her husband (you father) in them so she is attracted to them. are you unhappy you dont have this bond with her?

its ok to feel so bad after posting, you are cleansing your mind of all the evilness you endured as a child, so its not going to be speedy or easy.

i suffered abuse from my 16 year old brother when i was 10, he used to make me "play" with him and perform oral sex with him on several occasions. i know how hard it is to deal with this type of issue. but please know i am here for you at anytime if you should ever need me. just pm me ok, even if its just to get minor problems off your chest.

i hope you continue to battle with these demons that are following you, and i hope you continue to know we are all here for you.

take care of number 1 faith.

speak soon

simon