I have been looking for pants for two weeks. I need black dress pants for work. Think I can find any?? How hard could it be says bf. So he went with me last night... ha ya right. Nothing fits, and it's fine I have to hem them, I have to hem every pair, but do they not make dress pants in my waist size. Everything made me look like I had droopy drawers.

There are not many stores here, but I have two left that I haven't checked. Otherwise I don't know what I am gonna wear tomorrow. I checked all the thrift store too just in case.

I am starting to get nervous now tho. OMG I hope this is not like all my other jobs where I talk to no one, do my job and leave, like a ghost. Part of my reason for going to work is social. And I am worried that if I do not make the right first impressions then I will not be able to break the mold I set. And this is my bf's place of employment, so he already knows most of these people, adding to my nervousness.

And what if they don't train me, or show me where things are, or what I am supposed to be doing, and then I fail. What if my bosses ( three in total ) don't like me, or are mean or nasty. I have not met any of them yet, since I had no interview or anything.

What if I have to be the quite loner, with the silly lunch box, and have to sit in the corner on breaks by myself. Or my shoes are ugly, what shoes do you even where with dress pants, when you have to be on your feet cleaning for 8 hours. Runners? Won't that look weird?