You can improve some on your own, but if you can't seem to listen to others who try to care for you, how will you listen to yourself? I mean, YOU are in control of trusting or not... if you can't discipline yourself to do that, how will you discipline yourself to follow through with textbook options?

Ok... maybe it's you, with your attitude, that is not willing to break through/down that wall. I do indeed understand. There were many many times when, in heightened chronic pain, I would give my T an attitude. He finally got through to me, that HE'S ON MY SIDE. My disgust with the way life has gone, or how ppl have dissed me or whatever my problems ARE... have NOTHING to do with him. He's there to support me, why should I speak angrily or sarcastically or however TO him?? (Not that I did all that...but sometimes I wasn't feeling loveable, you know?)

NOW that I am able to speak WITH my psychologist instead of AT him... I feel better about the direction of my therapy... I can discuss any topic and any topic change wish with him and we work it out just fine.

Maybe the next topic with your T can be your concerns about therapy, and distaste for previous therapists? That way you and your T can agree upon how you will speak with each other and treat each other (as adults )) TC!