**Trigger Warning** sorry I forgot to mark it.

I used to never get angry. Or very rarely. I don't like confrontation.

But, now I have what I think is like a rolling rage inside of me. It's like... thunder... rolling through me. It's always kind of there. I'm pretty good at being calm but on the inside is just this low lying rumble.

So now, I get angry in traffic. I get angry at work. I get super angry when someone asks us the directions to our office. (Like... full on I want to scream in their face.) I get angry at the store. I get angry everhwhere. I yell, I scream, I pull my hair out... if it's bad enough I have a total melt down and even SI. Because, i don't attack anyone but myself... I snarl. I get snippy.

It scares me, really. I don't want to be that way.